So lets say you're this weird kid. You're a weirdo and not just any weirdo. You're one of those really nerdish weirdos, the one who spends all day reading comic books, playing videogames and basically having no social life whatsoever because you're so weird and you have no friends. Except for one. You're best friend. Your one and only friend who's an outcast like you and she's a weirdo like you who likes to read comics and play videogames and you two couldn't be closer. But then one day you notice something different about her. All the guys notice something different about her. She's different. Suddenly she's not that homely quiet girl that nobody pays attention to. She's suddenly gorgeous and everybody notices. Everybody.
You two would always sit on the bus together. Always. But today your older brother takes your best friend by the hand and says 'Hey, why don't you come and sit with me? I've got something I want to tell you.' She reluctanoutly agrees and tells you to save her seat and you say 'Of course.' So she goes to sit with him and you wait for her to come back. But about five minutes later you turn around and your heart drops and shatters into a million pieces. Because your best friend is sitting in your older brothers lap. They're making out and he's got his hand up her shirt and you just can't believe at all what is happening. You don't want to believe. When you all get off the bus she doesn't even bother to look at you. She goes off with your brother and you want to follow but you're afraid of what might happen. You're suddenly lost and confused. You just don't know at all what to feel.
You're all alone again. You're 'best friend' never ever seems to want to hang out with you anymore. She's always with you're brother. They're always making out and they always act like you're not even there. The only time she ever even talks to you is when your brother is at work. She waits at your house for him to get back and while she waits she talks to you as if nothing at all has changed. It's like old times again. But only for a while. As soon as your brother gets back she completely forgets about you. Whether you guys are reading a comic or playing a videogame it doesn't matter. She drops everything and runs into his arms saying 'I missed you!' and your brother simply shrugs and says 'whatever' before pressing his face to her face and leading her to the bedroom that you and him share. And then again you're all alone. With nothing at all to do but read comic books, smoke weed and let your bathroom sink fill with more and more blood.
Is this a life? Why is it that you continue? Maybe there's a reason and maybe there's not. Maybe things will get better and maybe they won't. Maybe your mother will finally love you and maybe your father will finally come back and maybe this time he'll love you too. Maybe you'll finally have a sense of purpose, of happiness, a sense of having a life worth living. And maybe you won't. But you won't give up hope. You won't give into the darkness. You won't give into despair or into your never ending pain. You won't. You won't. You won't.
You won't.
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This is what I would call, I guess, my interpretation of what happens in the book This Is How You Lose Her by Junot Diaz, who is a fantastic author! It's actually kind of hard to explain exactly what the book is because it is a collection of multiple stories, what I wrote above is only one of these stories, but they all in some way interconnect as if it were one larger story with multiple sub-stories. It's really cool and amazingly written and you really get into all of the stories and you truly feel empathy and sympathy for all of the character. I really wanted to just dive into the book and give the characters a hug and be like 'It's all going to be okay. I'm here for you.' That's an amazing quality for a book to be able to do that so I recommend that everyone in the world read this book because it's just so great!
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